Kaip įsivaizduoju Dievą?
Renku ir aprašau pavyzdžius iš savo gyvenimo, kaip įvairiai esu įsivaizdavęs Dievą.
Kas yra Dievas?
Kaip Dievą apibrėžti?
Kokio Dievo ieškau, kaip jį įsivaizduoju ir kokį išmąsčiau
Ieškau ko esmingesnio, paprastesnio, tiesesnio, užtikrintesnio Dievo.
Ką patyriau bendraudamas su Dievu
Kaip įvairiai pažįstu Dievą
Savo ryšius su Dievu išdėsčiau dvylika aplinkybių. O aplinkybes galime suvokti dvejopai, kaip įsijungimus (išgyvenimus) ir atitokėjimus (apsižvalgymus). Tad iš viso galėtų būti 24 Dievo raiškos.
Kitas, kurį galime mylėti
Kaip mane veikia Dievas.
Ką išmąsčiau apie Dievą
Gėrio kryptys, šaltiniai
Širdies ir pasaulio tiesos
Šv.Jono evangeliją tyriau bandydamas suvokti, kaip Jėzus mąstė pats sau, juk joje jisai mąsto tarsi algebra, tad bandžiau suvokti, kaip jisai apibrėžia ir supranta kiekvieną sąvoką. Tai dariau gyvendamas pas Senelę. Ir prisimenu kartą Vilniuje, raštinėje, berods šv.Kalėdų dieną, mąsčiau apie Dievą, kaip jisai yra už manęs, taip pat ir mano gelmių gelmėse, ir vienas ir kitas privalo sutapti, matyt, būtent manyje, tad supratau, jog gyvenimas yra Dievo gerumas. Bet po truputį supratau, kad jo labiau, amžinas gyvenimas yra suvokimas, jog Dievas nebūtinai geras. Šios mintys kilo betiriant šv.Jono evangeliją, ką Jėzui reiškia Dievo valia ir kaip ji skiriasi nuo mūsų valios.
Iš maldų rūšių supratau, jog Dievą suvokiame nenuosekliai, kaip viską lemiantį, prižiūrintį ir įkvėpiantį.
Dvejonių sandaroje Dievo plačiausias požiūris. Dievas lygintinas su bendru žmogumi, paskiru žmogumi ir pasauliu. Dievo požiūriu klausiu savęs, Kas nuo manęs priklauso? Ar įstengiu svarstyti klausimą? Kaip turėtų būti?
Parodoje "Dievo protas" suvokiau jog Dievas turi būti juodas, nes palaikau juoduosius ir jiems kuriu, ogi jie engiami per savo odos spalvą, bet taip pat, kad Dievas yra tai, ko nematome, ogi mes nematome juodos spalvos.
Ievą man žadėjo Dievas trokštantis visko, mylintis mane labiau kaip aš save, kuriam meldžiausi. O padalinimų nulybė, lygties 5+3=0 išdava, yra Dievas trokštantis betko, ramus.
Kaip tyriau šventąjį Raštą
Išmokau Šventąjį Raštą skaityti kraštutiniškai, pavyzdžiui, apie skyrybas.
Šventojo Rašto mįsles, kurias išsprendžiau
Iš kitų žmonių
Koks santykis tarp Dievo už mūsų ir pasąmonės lango? ir Dievo mūsų gelmėse.
Unknown goes beyond itself into the known.
tevas prideda visuma tai padalinimas
sunus suprsnta kaip veiksma prideda visuma ir gelme veidrodeli atvaizdai veidrodis
dvasia prideda lesi derina sustato pasirinkima tarp bendros taisykles ir paskiru atveju aplinkybe yra lesis
Darwinian axiomatic systems - complete but not consistent (bad variations go extinct) - Nicolas Lori
Sūnaus aštuonerybė susideda iš ketverybės ir asmens lygties. Pastaroji bene išreiškia gerumą septynerybe, Dievą ketverybe, amžiną gyvenimą penkerybe ir gyvenimą šešerybe. Visi šie padalinimai turi po du atvaizdus. Tokiu būdu galima sieti padalinimų rata su aštuonerybe.
Padalinimų ratu įsivaizduojame, kaip Dievas (nulybė) įsijungia veiksmais +1, +2, +3. Susieti su Dievo šokiu. Žmogaus požiūriu Dievo pirminė būsena yra ramybė - troškimas betko - iš kurio galiausiai iškyla meilė - troškimas visko - bet iš ramybės turi (klausimo išjudintas) išsivystyti iš savarankiškumo ir t.t.
God likes everything. He wants all variants. Do I like this? How does it seem to me?
As humans, we are bounded, and we take everything as our point of reference. Alternatively, God takes himself as his point of reference.
We are imagining God's perspective, and so we may look beyond everything to an outlook from which everything may unfold.
Dievas visus myli. Bet jam patinka būtent širdingi žmonės, kaip kad karalius Dovydas. Jam nepatinka drungnieji - juos išspjauna iš burnos, kaip kad Apreiškimo knygoje.
Dievas reiškiasi visų keturių asmenų išsivystymą aprėpiančia vienybe. Taip mes visi gyvėjame, jautrėjame, bręstame, atsiveriame Dievui, mus išgyvenančiam. Dievas susijęs su mūsų jautrumo (ir atliepimo) didinimu, tad su mūsų gyvumu. Jisai yra mūsų jautrumo siekiamybė, tarsi norėtumėme pajusti "nulį", to ko nėra. Tad amžinas gyvenimas.
Suvokti, kas nutolina
Appreciate futility What must it take for me to know everything? Conversing with: redirection Growing up, and seeking to know everything, I used to think that I could know human affairs from political science, which I could know from sociology, which I could know from psychology, which I could know from biology, which I could know from chemistry, which I could know from physics, which is based on mathematics. I was very interested to take high school physics and learn about the fundamental constituents of the universe. But the small bit that I surmised was that at the quantum level, reality itself seems to fade away, as if to say, you aren't meant to find anything here! And at that time, in the 1980's, it seemed that it would take billions of dollars of equipment and hundreds of scientists just to participate in the smallest way. So I concluded that if I am to know everything, God must make that possible.785
Believing 1-2-3-4 In real life, we discard the unessential to identify God which is deeper than our very depths, around such a core we allow for ourselves and others, we seek harmony of interests and we find a unity (Spirit) by which any person can serve as the center. These four frames are: believing; believing in believing; believing in believing in believing; believing in believing in believing in believing.29
Who wants to listen to God? In 1995, just as I was preparing to engage others to make my philosophy practical, and so developing the good will exercises, I was inspired by Kangning Liou, who would pray for an hour every morning. I thought I should certainly pray more, but especially if I am to lead and even influence people, I need to be able to converse with God and listen to God. I thought that if this was possible for me, then it should be possible for others as well. Yet few people seem to hear God. Then I realized that few people want to hear God for they would then be accountable to obey him.1104
Increase God's possibilities Conversing with: God's will In 2002, I had reached my limits financially. I had failed to generate interest in an import/export standard for tools for organizing thoughts. I was in Chicago, and I had to think of finding any job. Indeed, my plan had been that, having a mathematics Ph.D. and some programming skills, I could always find a job. However, the US was in a recession. And I realized that my resume did not reflect a standard career and, with hundreds of people applying for each job, I would be weeded out early on for almost all jobs. Yet my own rationalizations could keep me from finding work, too. How could I know what to do? So I decided to increase God's possibilities by taking a fourfold approach. I applied for some full time positions. I applied for work through temp agencies (but the little work they had went to their earlier workers). I wrote some ambitious proposals for my lab (including writing a paper which won a travel award and took me to India and then home to Lithuania). I looked for part-time work through my network and was hired by Shannon Clark for a few months of corporate work that paid well. By taking all approaches I felt that I kept myself open to God's plans for me.69
Prileisti geranorišką bendradarbiavimą
Suppose that God will make things doable As a high school student I came to think that physics at the quantum level simply fades the way, and so is not a foundation for knowledge of life. So I concluded that if I am to know everything, God must make that possible. The truth must be at hand, easy for me to find, as if I was to search for a lost key at the foot of a lamp post, where the light happens to be best.1103
Believing in believing Allowing for self and others. Listen to others and God, appreciate what they care about as given by their choices, words and actions. Take that to heart.37
Existential conversation with God How should I apply myself? Conversing with: God I think of an "existential conversation" with God as one where I don't presume to hear directly from God, but rather, link up my existential situation with God's existential situation, and walk through conclusions based on that.548
What would be fair Conversing with: God As a six-year-old child, I engaged God in an existential conversation. I wished to apply myself to know everything, partly for its own sake, and partly to make good use of that knowledge. I was concerned that to seek such knowledge I would need to think freely, which could be very dangerous and lead me astray. I thus offered that, if he let me think freely, even think that God doesn't exist, then on my part, I would always believe in him. 609
What would be reasonable As a child, I had made an offer to God, which seemed reasonable, and I felt God's presence, and I wondered if I should have a sign to confirm this understanding. But then I thought it would be wrong to ask for a sign, to look for a sign, to demand a sign, as I might invent a sign, or depend on a sign, and be lead astray. So I told God that my sign would be that I have no sign, and that if he ever meant otherwise, he would give me a sign.1223
Priimti, pripažinti Dievą
Accepting God's assertion I am in love with a woman who God told me I will marry. I don't pray that she marry me because God assures me that she will. I prayed with her that her aunt get well from cancer and God consistently assured me that she would. I asked if I should keep praying, if I should offer myself to him in some way, but he said no. She died, though. Yet they reported that just before she died she bore witness that God truly is, that he had greeted her, and she said that she loved them all very much, and she passed away. I didn't know what to make of this, and when I ask God, he doesn't say.12
Respect seriousness Conversing with: importance When I was little, our mother pulled us aside one day and briefly taught us about God and Jesus and how to make the sign of the cross. I appreciated that she was very serious and that there must be something real to it if she was so. I couldn't dismiss her utmost seriousness. God must be at least a possibility.771
Klausytis Dievo, prisistatyti jam
Feeling good before God When I wrestle with how to make a living, and I don't know how to think that through, so that even my blood pressure feels high, then I listen especially, what God wants me to do. And when I hear from God, as I do, and take up in my heart what he would have me do, then I feel a great energy of goodness and freedom that overcomes my anxiety. I hold on to that good feeling and it makes me feel that everything will be fine if I am true to God. As I do related work, I feel elated.1234
Listen to God 555 Ask God a question Conversing with: answer In 1985, at the University of Chicago, I asked God, what kind of mathematics was important, and I understood him to say: walks on trees made of the elements of the threesome, which I denoted at the time as I (individual action), C (communal existence), U (universal thought), and I thought related to an infinite binary tree, which would be the case if I, C, U refered to the edges. I never quite knew what to make of that although I did prove a result about counting walks on trees and my thesis could be used to think further about this. I asked God, why did I have feelings for a woman who was too young for me, and he said it was because I will marry her. Also, when I prayed in the mornings, I would ask God a philosophical question and , which were very intense and generally more helpful indirectly. Now I mostly just listen to God, what does he have to say.71
Ask God what I should think over so as to understand? 1999.08.18: I asked God which questions I should think over so as to understand why good will makes way for good heart. He responded:
Ask God what interests him? 1999.08.18: In my personal work I want to do some investigations into a question that is of interest to God. I told him so and he responded: Why does Good Will make way for Good Heart?1468
Check with God Conversing with: selflessness I check in with God every so often, including when I have doubts on how I may behave, what is allowed or not, how not to be selfish.739
Hear from God in a dream Conversing with: God's perspective In dreams, I heard God say, "Those things are which show themselves to be" and "This is the fundamental unit of information" (a tableaux of large and small slashes)787
Listen to God Conversing with: God's wishes God told me, as I listened to him, to investigate God's love in the ways of figuring things out.713
Work in tune with God Conversing with: sensitiveness In China, I asked for God's help to write up together how to develop the "good will exercises", which I did with full attention to God.748
Write down what God says Conversing with: God's wisdom's noteworthiness I write down what God tells me each morning, including his answers to my questions, and I realize that he (or even my unconscious) is of much more powerful intelligence than I am.78
Likti Dievui ištikimu
Stay true to God Conversing with: fate As a child in grade school, I was weak and young, but during recess, I didn't want to be protected by the teachers, so I would walk far off into the field. And quite often a disturbed child would come up to bully me. I was a very good child and my response was to be as good as possible and to appeal in my heart to God to save me. Always some stronger kid would come and save me.715
Believe in God Conversing with: inexperience I wondered, why were people so hesitant to do "good will exercises" with me? Why did they not want to let go of their experience in the sense that I was? Why was I able to live on the edge? I realized that I do believe in God. I do believe that God watches over me. I can therefore do risks to do the right thing. I then appreciated that people might not be able to do that if they don't believe in God. I drew this conclusion even though I had been very careful to think that people might not need to explicitly believe in God, but might have some comparable concept. Yet I saw that, to my dismay, they generally didn't.69
Obey God Conversing with: God's wisdom Do good. Go to church. Chastity. Respect my parents.747
Atsiremti į tikėjimą
Applying Scripture Conversing with: heritage I wanted to have a way to hear from God, so I relied on the prayer "Our Father", which I had prayed many times, was part of my personal heritage, my family's heritage and my religious upbringing. 673
Value my life Conversing with: God's gift In China, after a conversation with Tong Zhu about the moral dilemmas of being a doctor, I realized that I was too precious to God to make a living as I had from a job that I did not think contributed to society, coding for a health care start-up serving a regulatory mandate of dubious merit.776
Prileisti platesnį požiūrį
Caring about caring about caring about caring Acknowledging what transcends our limits. Let go of my personal limits and live the vision of an unlimited God who can live through all.43
Aprėpti, pagauti visumą
Exhaustive review Conversing with: significance In 2009, to my surprise, I completed my quest "to know everything" with a 10 minute video summary, "I Wish to Know". I needed to find my bearings afterwards. I considered, in the broadest sense, what did I learn from my quest? And what came next? I learned two things. I need not be cold or distant to God as I had been, I need not keep God at arm's length, for God's point of view had made sense of absolutely every structure that I had uncovered in my search. I realized also that the useful application of this knowledge would be to foster a culture of truth, of self-learning, of figuring things out, which from my experience at Minciu Sodas was very much Jesus' vision of the Kingdom of Heaven. 707
Laying out thoughts Conversing with: thoughts In studying a question, I may collect a full variety of examples, group them and then lay out the groups as index cards on a table, and shuffle them around, looking for different dimensions that they may represent of particular aspects. In this way, I noted 12 ways that I connect with God, but other structures as well, such as the utility of an Irdakiss standard for import/export of data between tools for organizing thoughts. As I do this, a particular structure may come to mind, such as the 12 topologies, and so I will try to flesh it out.627
Failing to sort messages from God Once I failed miserably with this method. Almost every morning I listen to God and write down what he has to say. After several years, I tried to see if there were any patterns I could detect. However, the answers were so rich and intense that I kept getting dozens of dozens of groups, more and more as I added more data. I wasn't able to find an angle from which I could group his thoughts to me. He didn't seem too pleased, either.1541
Twelve Topologies in the Psalms I wanted to better understand twelve topologies, which I think of as the vocabulary of the imagination. In the first 40 psalms, I copied out the instances where God is imagined, then grouped them according to the mental image used, and came up with twelve groups, which I then matched with the twelve topologies.1533
Tvarkyti, grįsti, gryninti, rinktis proto aplinką
Define a concept in terms of other concepts I wanted to be sure to include and define all of the basic concepts in life. I wanted to do that in terms of the most basic concepts, and ultimately, ground them in the structures that I was discovering. I defined life as "the fact that God is good" and love as "support for life" and also as "the unity of the representations of the structure of God", thus "the unity of wishing", "the unity of the representations of everything". I organized these definitions using TheBrain and then later exported that to an HTML hierarchy. I knew that this kind of definition was, by itself, problematic and so I looked for other ways of defining as well, such as by way of "mind games" as with the topologies.1
Expressing the essence as a relation of concepts *** What are the elements of an experience? Conversing with: concepts I formulated the seven counterquestions as perspectives placed in situations. I recognized the qualities of signs as pairs of levels from the foursome. Similarly, I recognized that I could express the secondary structures as injections of God of one level into a primary structure of another level. In studying verbalization, I realized that the deep issue of a good will exercise could be considered as built up from two concepts which are put together differently by the truth of the heart and the truth of the world.682
Choose a fruitful data set Conversing with: circumstances for a phenomenon In developing a theory, I often choose a dataset of examples that makes vivid the phenomenon I am looking for and represents the complete variety of possibility. I analyzed Jesus' feelings and expectations by studying episodes from the Gospel of Mark because it was the most emotional of the Gospel. I studied the content of Jesus' parables in the Gospel of Luke. I studied what is "good" in the Gospel of Matthew. I tried to chase down Jesus' algebra of expressions to understand his "I am..." statements in the Gospel of John. I studied Lithuanian folk tales for my narrative theory because they are old, engaging, consistent and pure. I studied how God is imagined in the first 40 psalms because I was considering topologies as the variety of ways that we can imagine and I thought of God as the most generic yet intimate of concepts. I studied Lakoff and Johnson's target spaces from Metaphors We Live By because they had noted an important phenomenon and their many examples seemed to capture the variety of possibility.65
Išmąstyti proto ribų apibrėžtą Dievo požiūrį
And consider the "ten commandments". Note that these six "rooms" correspond to the six divisions of everything as generated by God taking up the counterquestions. The zeroth division corresponds to What do I truly want? and obeying God, and the seventh division corresponds to Am I doing anything about this? and caring=believing, living as a person-in-general, thus relating (Obeying) God the Father and (Believing) Jesus. Consider how the other secondary structures likewise arise in the house of knowledge from God's taking up the primary structures.34
Primary and Secondary Structures I came to realize that the six secondary structures (divisions, representations, topologies, argumentation, verbalization, narration) were given by pairs of levels of the foursome that injected God into primary structures.170
Considering the structure of a null structure In considering representations of the foursome, I noticed the role of "null perspectives" as reference points for the other perspectives. Later, in analyzing the primary structures, and considering how God is injected in them, I noticed that I could think of these structures each defined by "null structures" having their own increasingly complex structure. I think I was much inspired by the idea in modern algebra of a "kernel" to a group homomorphism, a structure which is mapped to the identity action.1702
Pregnant structure A structure may be able to say more than I know it to say, especially along with other structures. When I realized that I could think of the secondary structures could be expressed as God of one level of the foursome injected into a primary structure from another level, I noticed in particular in 2003 what happened to the seventh perspective of the primary structures. They showed an interesting variety of behavior, which I thought of as six expressions of the will, six representations of anything:
Recognizing a structure's purpose *** Which structures are distinct? Conversing with: purpose A very powerful technique is to consider the purpose of a structure. Over several years I had collected a dozen or more examples of structural frameworks consisting of seven or eight perspectives, depending on how you looked at them. I had tried to conceive of them as a single structure, yet that seemed less and less tenable. Finally, I made a list of what seemed to be the purpose of each structure. I noticed four purposes:
(Looking back, it's interesting that I ordered the four differently than I would now. I thought of them as four representations of the eightsome, four holes for generating slack, matching the representations of the nullsome.) And having grouped them so, I could see that I could think of them from God's point of view as wishes (for nothing - God is self-sufficient; for something - God is certain; for anything - God is calm; for everything - God is loving) and our own point of view as not-wishes.625
2017.08.18 A: Kaip tu mumis dalyvauji gyvenime?
D: Aš suteikiu jums laisvę, o jūs gyvenate laisve. Turite laisvę mylėti, tuomet aš myliu jumis ir su jumis. Tad mylėkite save, vienas kitą ir visus ir mane. Tai vis tas pats, tai asmenų lygmenys: dvasia, sandara, atvaizdai ir vieningumas. Jais mes vis suvedame ir įprasminame gyvenimo lygtį. Gyvenimo lygtis, tai turinys, o asmenų lygmenys, tai jos raiška, o jumis gyvenu gyenimo lygtimi, o jūs tai išreiškiate asmenų lygmenimis. Jus taip myliu per amžių amžius. Jus laiminu.